All of me loves all of you.

They said when you truly love someone being faithful is easy.
It is true, With you, I just want to spend time with you all the time, even when I am at work.
When I'm out with my friends, all I want to do is go home and call you.

You are on my mind all the time. I mean ALL THE TIME.

When I see the future, I just see you as a large part of my life.

Call me crazy in love, psycho or obsessed or whatever... but its your love for me that makes me want to love you more and more each day.

I know I may not be the perfect girlfriend. But I will try my best to be the best you will ever have.Know that I will try my best not to hurt you. And as long as you are not going to give up on us no matter what happens, I am here to stay,

P.S. Part of me wishes to tell your ex girlfriends or your ex dates....." your loss"

imperfectly perfect

Everyone strives for perfection.
Including me.
Spent years trying to be the perfect daughter, the perfect nurse, the perfect best friend or friend, the perfect size, the perfect girlfriend.
You set up expectations for yourself so so high. Only to let yourself down time and time again.

Then you spend years seeking perfection in other things, the perfect dress, the perfect job, the perfect friend, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect bag, shoes, house, car .... the list goes on but you get what I mean...
You set up expectations for these things so so high. These things let you down time and time again.

I still strive for perfection in certain areas in my life. But instead of having extremely high expectations, I just set little goals that get me to eventually where I want to be.

As for people, I have learnt not to expect. We will never truly know a person 100%, despite knowing them for a billion years. People change, feelings change, situations change....
But I have always kept this is mind, no one is perfect, everyone is bound to make mistakes.Including myself.

So here's a little reminder to everyone who knows me or who I have disappointed before:

I'm not perfect.
Sometimes I say things that I don't mean, I'm impulsive. I'm selfish at times. And when I'm hurt or when things are just really bad in my life... I retract away from almost everyone and become non-existent. But that doesn't mean I am cutting you off.

But I can promise you that I will try my best to be there for you if you ever need me, I will listen, I will advice. But do me wrong.. and I will cut you off, with or without warning :)

To you.

You have changed my life.

For many years, I had this very warped perception of love that made me blind and naive and stupid. I never understood them and they never understood my love. I would get my heart broken over and over till I was numb. So numb that I knew the next one that came along.. Would break my heart and take everything that I had... And he did.

I went into social isolation. Went from work to home like a lifeless zombie yet contented being in my own little bubble. I learned to love myself during that time. I took a trip by myself and I healed and felt better about myself.

Thats when you came along. Somewhere along our endless conversations... I had grown fond of you and loved how you understood me so well... Noone else has.

Your love for me is one that I have not experienced in my life. I have never had someone love me this much before and it scares me... It scares me because I'm afraid if I get used to it and if I lose you...then I might never get that kind of love back again. But you have reminded me time and time again that I was going to be a permanent fixture in your life and you are never ever going away.

I remind you several times a day of how much I love you cause I never want you to doubt what I feel for you. I miss you all the time and hearing your voice at any given time of the day makes my day a whole lot brighter.

Its been exactly 3 months since we have been together. Noone understands our love better than we do. And this is what I wanna tell you...

I accept you for who you really are...
And im not gonna change you in anyway.
Your past may have messed you up but im not like them. I know what its like to be hurt and I'm not gonna hurt you in anyway. Neither am I gonna walk away from this great thing that we have.

I love you.. I truly do. You mean the world to me.