imperfectly perfect

Everyone strives for perfection.
Including me.
Spent years trying to be the perfect daughter, the perfect nurse, the perfect best friend or friend, the perfect size, the perfect girlfriend.
You set up expectations for yourself so so high. Only to let yourself down time and time again.

Then you spend years seeking perfection in other things, the perfect dress, the perfect job, the perfect friend, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect bag, shoes, house, car .... the list goes on but you get what I mean...
You set up expectations for these things so so high. These things let you down time and time again.

I still strive for perfection in certain areas in my life. But instead of having extremely high expectations, I just set little goals that get me to eventually where I want to be.

As for people, I have learnt not to expect. We will never truly know a person 100%, despite knowing them for a billion years. People change, feelings change, situations change....
But I have always kept this is mind, no one is perfect, everyone is bound to make mistakes.Including myself.

So here's a little reminder to everyone who knows me or who I have disappointed before:

I'm not perfect.
Sometimes I say things that I don't mean, I'm impulsive. I'm selfish at times. And when I'm hurt or when things are just really bad in my life... I retract away from almost everyone and become non-existent. But that doesn't mean I am cutting you off.

But I can promise you that I will try my best to be there for you if you ever need me, I will listen, I will advice. But do me wrong.. and I will cut you off, with or without warning :)